Don't worry guys, those of you {if there are any people reading this blog..} that knew I was depressed and beyond upset.. all is well. :)
I talked to my mommy. The only person who knows me so well that it's scary. She helped me out. I love her so much. She helped me see what I needed to do, where I went wrong {yes, I make mistakes. lots of them. all the time. it's bad.}, how to fix it, and that I am a great person that can do great things! I need to set my mind on what I want and let nothing stop me from getting it. Sometimes that will hurt. But it will get better. And I need to see things from other peoples perspectives. No man is an island and I tend to think I am. I tend to think that there is just me and forget that other people have more to them or their lives than what I can comprehend {I live up to my pet peeve of inconsideration quite nicely in some circumstances, haha}. That stops now. Time to see from their points of view!
Jenna has taught me a lot in the short time we've roomed together and here's one of the biggest lessons. Willpower. This girl is frickin insane. She sets her mind to something and BAM she's got it. Walked in here and said, "I want a boyfriend" found four potential bfs. Said, "I want Chase to be my boyfriend", a guy not even in the potential list and practically a stranger, and they're dating. She is the most determined, independent little thing I have ever seen. She decides to get over a guy and it's done. She decided she wanted a 4.0 so she can get into law school in New York and guess what.. it's happening. She's incredible. Just like my best friend Mikeala from high school! Scary. She and I were talking and she told me that I need to learn that. Decide today, right now, that nothing is going to stop you from getting what you want. Decide that if something isn't going the way you want it to, change it. Decide that you are worth it all. Go for it and let nothing stop you.
I'm going to be stronger.
Life lessons from tonight: stop being so needy {holy goodness child}, be more confident in yourself, don't let anyone make you feel unhappy, make up your mind to get what you want, and get what you want by using your unstoppable willpower.
I got this.
