Calling up a friend when you should be asleep but you can't stop crying and she tells you all the things you didn't want to hear but knew were true deep inside anyway.

Sometimes I'd rather stay inside the bubble of convoluted logic I've made for myself rather than face the truth that I avoid. It seems like every step of the path I walk I make awful mistakes. Only I can't see them. When I ask someone walking beside me to look..they see it all. Then they tell me exactly where I went wrong and how I'm a screw up and can't do anything right and suddenly I see. They break through my illogical, dis-functional head. I can see retrospectively that I never should have done this from the start or shouldn't even have let that happen or done this to that person. 
Looking back with the aid of someone else I know just what went wrong and why it's messing up my life right now. 
My mistakes only become mistakes once someone shows me they were. Otherwise I go on in my abnormal, emotional way, messing up all the time. Every time I think I'm making a good decision it turns out to be completely wrong.

I think too much. 

Make it stop.