January 16, 2012

Something is wrong with me.

I was going through my cousin Brittany's blog, just browsing, casually laughing at pictures of her baby boy Elijah, and thinking about how weird it is that she's married and has a child when I swear just yesterday I was in the van with my other cousins dropping her off for her first semester at the Y...

When I see this picture:

Okay.
Normally Mackenzie wouldn't think anything but, "oh, that is so cute." And then maybe think about her dress choice or the setting or something like that. Because, as my family will attest to, I am not keen on the idea of marriage. Maybe someday in the way, way future but I don't even want to think about that. There are so many reasons why I have not planned my wedding, am not planning on planning it, or even planning on marriage. SO MANY REASONS.
But I must be broken, because
...
This picture is so freaking cute and now I just want to get married!!!!!!!!
AHHHHH!!! What is happening?!?!
Brittany looks so happy and Michael looks so in love and they're so adorable and I want that and WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!

I cannot believe that I've been thinking about marriage. This is horribly wrong. This is not good. I'm going to end up doing something rash like falling in love and getting married.. *shudder*
I'm only eighteen. I'm a freshman. I am going to go on a mission. I am going to do a Study Abroad. Marriage is not really in my schedule as of yet. Not until after I'm twenty-three at least. So I cannot be thinking like this right now.

The freakin BYU marriage craze is rubbing off on me and 
I am not happy about it.