December 8, 2011

Losing it

Being told you're crazy by someone you respect and love does not help when you've been telling yourself all along that you're clinically crazy.


I know that I am a wonderful person. I know for a fact that I have talents and gifts and personality traits that are amazing. I know that I am meant to do something on this earth that no one else can do and somehow, I'm going to change the world, I'm going to change someone's world. I know that I am strong and confident and beautiful and smart and caring and empathetic.


Unfortunately, I also believe that something isn't right in my head. I feel like I should be on medication. I've spent so long believing that I couldn't make true friends or fall in love or find that special someone unless I cover up the ugly parts of me. I truly think that there's something wrong with me. My mind is a mess.


It hurts to hear that reinforced by another person.