It was always the most awkward lesson in Sunday School and Young Women's, always a feared talk from the parents, and the ever uncomfortable presentation in school.
But first, a preface.
My dear, darling friend Shamele is very.. manly, you could say. We've been friends since we were in seventh grade when he had the biggest crush on me. It was adorable. Though unfortunate because I didn't like him back really. Shamele got really charming and attractive around fifteen years old. He might not be attractive in the face, my little Hindu friend, but.. dang. His body? I can't even begin to describe how hot that is. Once he suddenly turned really charming and hot he started dating like crazy. Shamele has always been a really.. testosterone filled guy.. you could say... From his first girlfriend freshman or sophomore year he started sleeping with random girls all over the place. I mean, he would go to a party, flirt with a random chick and then go nail her. One night stands all the time. For some people, that's totally normal. Society thinks it's normal, in fact. For me though, and a lot of other LDS kids, that's horrific.
I hung out with Shamele and Collin today. Of course this topic came up. He said that he's been with even more girls since he's gone to school up north. He went even crazier. Now this makes me think. First I think about the Law of Chastity and what I personally would be like without it. Would I be like him? Just having a bunch of non-committal sex all over the place?
Two conclusions from that thought. One - the human part of me would not have a problem with that. Sounds great. Hey, I'm human! Two - the moral part of me is grossed out. I don't wanna be a slut. That's just messed up.
And that brings me to my next thought. Although it is hard to follow, I am so grateful for the Law of Chastity. Specifically for two reasons.
- Something Shamele kept saying was "it's meaningless, it's nothing". Now, I wouldn't know, because I haven't been in that situation, but I feel like it couldn't possibly be meaningless for either partner. Especially not me. I get so attached to people, so easily. I'd get hurt when I found out that the night spent together meant nothing to the guy.
- I'm self-conscious! Here's what is such a relief to me: my husband will have never looked at or been with another girl before {hopefully} so I will be the best for him! He'll think I'm hot! He'll think I'm super awesome! I would not be able to tolerate being with a man that has something to compare me to, no matter where I rank. Same for him. The Law of Chastity is going to ensure that my husband thinks I'm the greatest thing ever.
Sorry for talking about an extremely uncomfortable topic, guys. Sorry if you're disgusted now, haha. Actually, no, I'm not. This is my blog, my thoughts, my journal. This was on my mind today so I wrote about it. Deal with it. :)
