It's time for me to take a second and express my gratitude for Jordan.
This kid and I were friends for four months before any of this started happening. And during that time he became one of my best friends. He showed me true friendship and compassion, let me open to him as he did the same, and was there for me whenever I needed it, especially after the breakup. Honestly, if he hadn't have been there listening to me and checking up on me during those hard days I don't know who I would have talked to. And now that we're seeing each other as something more than friends I am even more grateful for him. He is so terribly sweet to me. And I'm not sure he realizes it. A lot of the things he does that I really appreciate are things he doesn't think about doing. He's just that sweet and kind by nature I guess!
Yesterday I had an awful day. Really just a horrendous one. I was going to be on campus from eight to eight, working six hours, I had no sleep, was hungry and only had a thing of soup... It was one of those bad days where the end is not in sight. I get this text from Jordan around one:
"I wanted to ask you if you wanted to come over, do dinner and watch a movie at my apartment. I figured you might have wanted to just relax after your long day. Give you something to look forward to after work. :) did you drive or should I pick you up?"
Basically made me cry in history class. Seriously I started tearing up and got all emotional and crap (blame the hormones and no sleep... Actually, no, that's just my personality.. Never mind). That was so thoughtful and kind and loving. That he would think of me and offer all those nice things for me touched my heart. He did pick me up and we ate and watched a movie... It was so nice and low-key. It was one of the most wonderful evenings I've had with him and it wasn't even that big of a deal, ya know? We just hung out and chilled! But it meant the world to me.
And he does this kind of stuff all the time. Granted, we've only been seeing each other for a couple of weeks now, but he is still just blowing me away with how well he treats me. Haha, last night the poor kid goes (after I gushed to him about how sweet he was doing all of these things for me) "I don't want you to get really high expectations though". That kind of shocked me. It's because I have no expectations for him that I'm so pleased with him.
When I dated Alex I had all the expectations in the world for him. He was to text me good morning, talk to me all day, see me all the time, take me out to eat as often as possible, compliment me every other word, take me on romantic dates, etc etc. I am ashamed of the expectations I had. I am ashamed of what kind of girlfriend I was. Looking back Alex was amazing and was such a good boyfriend but at the time all I saw were his flaws because of my expectations. I've since stopped. Jordan has no expectations from me. At least, none out of the norm, haha.
Before dating Collin I didn't know how well I could be treated. He really opened my eyes. And now Jordan's backing it up. I feel like I really must have done something right. :)