And after he broke up with me I felt like I'd have to search really hard to find that kind of relationship again. The kind where I felt valued and safe and well-taken care of. It seemed so once-in-a-lifetime to me.
So then I jumped into this crazy thing with Jordan. I kept my expectations low since I truly didn't believe he, or anyone, could be as good to me as Collin was. Well... I don't know if it's coincidence, or the Lord's hand, or something else, but here I am again, just a month after the last one, feeling shocked and awed at how happy a guy is making me. Am I really just that lucky, to get two guys in a row, in such close proximity, that are so good to me? Is it the Lord's way of blessing me for doing who-knows-what right? Is it because I seriously have no expectations?
I don't know what happened to let me be with these two amazing guys. I'm just going to enjoy every minute of it.
And so, I guess, this is my unofficial, unspoken thank you to them both. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for the smiles and the compliments. Thank you for the hugs while I cry and the comfort when I stress. Thank you for the Taco Bell that night I thought I'd die of exhaustion and embarrassment. Thank you for driving me home when I was going to walk. Thank you for making me feel important and necessary. Thank you for taking me to lunch and sacrificing time for me. Thank you for welcoming me into your life and accepting me into your group of friends. Thank you for all the subtle hints and signals about how you feel dropped like inside jokes. Thank you for taking it slow and letting me be your friend first. Thank you for listening to my pointless stories and stupid ramblings and obnoxious complaints. Thank you for putting up with my antics and hormones. Thank you for not thinking I'm completely insane. Thank you for bragging to your friends about me. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life, for however brief a moment it was and may be. You are both people I will never forget. I'm indebted to you both.
