So, here's my mental state right now.
I am stressed over finals. And anxious about getting a job.
But really...
I am well. I gave myself a week to mourn the whole missionary thing, I pulled myself back up, and am now healing. I am doing so much better than most "missionary girls" are at this point. I mean, mental pat on the back, thank you very much! Seriously, you should be impressed with me. Someone tell me they're proud of me! Mom. Tell me you're proud of me. Because you should be. This has been a traumatic event! Anyway, I have been doing so well. I'm getting back to my roots and foundation and really thriving. That is not to say, though, that it isn't still hard. The first three days were the absolute worst. Things are so much better now but it is still a process. At least once a day there is something that hurts. Every day brings a new challenge. I hadn't cried for three whole days when something hard hit me today. I was going strong! I faltered a little bit but I'm getting back up on my feet. Going home will help a lot and right now that's my goal.
I am doing so well though. I wish you could see the smile I have on my face these days. Everything is going to be okay!!!
