How can you look at someone you love that is hurting and let them walk away? How do you let them tell you they've been depressed and struggling and not do anything to try and make them feel better? When that person is there for you through everything. And they would do anything for your happiness. How, HOW, do you let them go?
I'd do anything for that dumb boy. Last week he had a little bit of a rough day, just woke up a little grumpy, and I went out of my way to cheer him up. Visiting him at work, leaving a bunch of notes on his car, checking up on him repeatedly. It was hardly a bad day for him. Imagine if he had a truly horrific day. I don't want to be self centered and egotistical about this but really, can you picture what I would do for him?
I want a man who is going to take me aside and hold me until I get better. Who is going to chase me down when I walk away. I want a man that says, "you are my number one priority and I will set your happiness above anything else." And I want a man who is not afraid to look me in the eye and say "I messed up and I am sorry."
There will come a day when he will wake up, I will be gone, and he will realize how good I was to him. He will sadly recognize that he had a beautiful, loving, and decidedly devoted young woman so willing to make him happy and he let her go. He'll regret his stubbornness in refusing to compromise. And on that day he will understand that you "never know your lover till you let her go."
The problem is that I don't know when that day will be.
