March 8, 2012

I'm such a toucher, it's weird. Given the choice between money and a day full of hugs I would choose the hugs. Unless it was like ten bazillion dollars. Because you really can't beat ten bazillion dollars.. and if I had ten bazillion dollars I could pay people to give me hugs every day for the rest of my life! It's not just hugs though, I love holding hands, cuddling {such an icky word}, having a hand on my back or my shoulder, sideways hugs, hugs from behind, kisses, linking arms... it makes me feel so safe and loved. If someone wants to touch me {gosh, that phrase sounds awful! haha, I don't know how else to say it though. I do not mean in a creepy molester way for clarification} it means they really love me! They care about me and want me in their life! I'm definitely more about words, they top physicality just barely, but touch is so so important to me. And right now, right now, I am dying, absolutely dying for a hug. Since I'm almost done with classes the only people I'll see for the rest of my day are Kenzi and Kyla. Neither of which are touchy people in any way. I've actually heard Kenzi tell people, "don't touch me," and Kyla is just the most awkward person alive. That's not to say I don't LOVE MY ROOMMATES. I do, so very much. Last night we all sat in the living room for a couple hours talking and eating and laughing. I took a little mental picture because I loved it so much. They're great girls and we all get along so well. I feel very comfortable with them. Not comfortable enough for a hug though! Ideally I'd like to hug/snuggle with Alex, Mom, or Stadd. They're all far away though. Next on the list would be Mitch or Tanner. And after that Julie. Someone like me, a crazy toucher, can't go too long without it or I feel deprived and start freaking out! I'm freaking out! This is me freaking out! I need a hug! I need to wrap my arms around someone and put my head on their shoulder. Doesn't that sound nice? Don't you want a hug now too?? :) Come here, I'll hug you. :)