Alex and I are great.
I feel bad because every time we have a fight or something just a little bad happens I blog about it but then I never blog again explaining if it's alright.
Yep, it's alright. :)
I'm a cheesy, romantic little thing. Not all the time, mind you. I can go on a date with him and not be emotional or sensitive or corny-romantic at all. But it's definitely in me to be that way. I'm a daydreamer, a love-loving person. Alex.. is not. Alex and I have most everything in common by way of opinions and beliefs and likes and dislikes and everything. But there are some things in our personalities that are completely and totally polar opposite. Alex is not sensitive. He is a man that hates crying, calls things "ultra gayyyy" that I think are cute, and hates being cheesy. He's basically a mood-killer. Things might start getting a little romantic and he'll say something so totally off-topic and jaw-droppingly absurd that everything is ruined. It's like leaning in for the perfect kiss after a moonlit dance on the balcony of a five-star restaurant in a gorgeous dress with candles and saying, "I have to fart." He. So. Would. I think something like this has actually happened. I would not put it past this one! It reminds me of Stadd, gosh. It's ridiculous.
But that's the thing, since we're so opposite, we're so compatible. I bring out the soft, sweet, sensitive side in him and he tones down my romantic, cheesy tendencies a lot. It's that perfect opposites attract thing. Even though sometimes it frustrates me, like let me have my moment okay??! Most of the time it just makes me laugh. That's his thing, he makes me laugh. I need someone like that. Someone that can take how serious and heavy I can make things and make them light-hearted. I can be very, very light-hearted, I have a pent-up inner child that begs to come out but sometimes I need help. Alex facilitates that in many ways. And I help him to be nicer and more sensitive and caring. He stabilizes me and I ... haha I don't actually really know what I do for him.
But we bring out the best in each other. Isn't that what this is supposed to be about anyway? Finding someone that makes you a better.. you? That's what I want, at least. Someone that thinks I'm the best thing ever and helps me improve. He thinks I'm nice, kind, and sweet and that I have a good heart, something I've never thought of myself. But since he thinks that of me I've begun cultivating those attributes. And I see things in him that he never recognized and now that he's noticing he's improving on. Sure, you can say I'm too young to love or too young to know what I really want {that's certainly something my dad would say}, but I feel like I am and I do. We could never make anything long-term work right now, we're both too immature, but given a shot at a future together? Well, that's something very plausible. Something I wouldn't mind at all.
