Had the opportunity to cry on my home teachers shoulder for an hour. Warren is such a good guy. Kinda quirky but has the best heart. I called him earlier to ask for a blessing and he ended up staying for over an hour, listening to me voice my fears and concerns and then telling me just what I needed to hear. Literally exactly what I've needed. I told him how scared I feel. The future can be so exciting but right now I'm just plain terrified. We talked about not knowing, and wishing we could see the path even though we can't. We talked about financial concerns and he helped me look at my options. He showed me that it is going to be okay. He helped me see what I need to do and how very do-able it actually is. He helped me re-kindle that hope. We discussed loneliness and how I've felt spiritually alone, like no one is hearing me and the Spirit has abandoned me. He pinpointed just what has been wrong and made me remember that I'm not alone. We talked about perfectionism and the shortcomings I have that should not cripple me. He let me cry and told me it would be okay. I believe him.
Everything's going to be okay.
It's been a difficult month. February was hard on me and so far March hasn't been much better. But it will be alright. There's so much hope. This weird funk I've been in will pass. Everything's going to work out.
Don't worry. :)
