These next couple months are going to be tough. The end of March is going to be insanely painful. After Alex leaves, I'm going to spend a couple days wallowing. Some may say, suck it up and move on! But, no, I, of all people, need my self-pity time. This is a boy that I'm so crazy about. It's honestly a deeper feeling than I've ever had, can you blame me for being depressed when he goes? I'll go ahead and feel like death for a few days and then I'll stop, pick myself, and be strong. I probably won't get over him immediately but it will happen. I'll distract myself so it doesn't hurt any more. Homework, exercise, and {hopefully} a job will occupy my time to the point that I can't think about him. By the time I go home for the summer I won't be nuts about him and will be moving on with my life. Over the summer I'll get a full time job at some crappy place and work myself to death earning a ton of money. In the fall I'll come back to school, ready for a fresh start. Fall semester I won't date. At all. You heard me. Not because I'm waiting for Alex, because I need some time to myself to figure things out. Winter semester I'll see what comes along and if I want to date anyone I will. But that next fall, or possibly summer.. As in 2013.. I'm going on a study abroad. I will make that happen. Understood? Ideally I would either go to China or a history-rich European country. Well, I guess anywhere would be amazing. Africa would be incredible too. So that'll last for a semester and I'll be back by the start of 2014. That's when I really focus on my education, getting down to business with el geology. If a man comes along, alright, but I'd really like to go on a mission. If a mission works out then hey! July of 2014! I'll be off! When I come back I'll graduate, marry someone ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC and then go to work for USGS at St. Helens as a geologist.
Life.
Bam.
