The Rise and Fall of "Us"
October 29th: "Went on an awesome date with Collin this weekend. :)"
November 6th: "I really like Collin :) I think we'll go official with our dating soon. BUT I still have to let Sam, Judd, Jordan, and Chris down first.. First world problems! haha"
November 11th: "Collin Smith and I are officially dating. :) I am so happy."
December 1st: "It's wonderful being with Collin. He is beyond good to me. I have never been treated so well. Collin treats me infinitely better than any other guy ever has. He really wants my happiness. He would do anything for me! Every day he works so hard to please me. In all honesty I'm falling in love. He's not the perfect person... but I love who he is and who he could be."
December 11th: "I'm in love :)"
December 18th: "I miss Collin. He's so sweet and I love being with him. Only two more weeks before I can see him!"
December 23rd: "...Collin just broke up with me..."
When did this all become fake? When we were on the phone he said he'd been contemplating breaking up for a couple weeks. He said he never should have told me he loved me. So, everything was a lie at least as far back as early December.
I never saw it coming. How was I supposed to? I believed it all.
And I never even got the real reason. He "wasn't ready". It wasn't me, it was him. We're better as friends. He felt too tied down.
I got all of the classic lines and none of the hard-lined truth.
What did I do wrong? :(
I'd contemplated breaking up with him on at least three separate occasions. But I always held back. I liked him too much. I knew he was trying so hard. I genuinely didn't want to hurt him. I didn't want to lose him. There was never anything worth breaking up over.
How did I let this happen??
