I think his breaking up with me was all the more shocking because it was so out of character for him. Yes, it was out of character for our relationship, which I thought had been going so well, but even more so for Collin, the sweetest, kindest, most tender guy I've dated. He'd never done anything to hurt me. He worked for my happiness and took care of me when I was sad or hurt. Breaking up in such a painful way wasn't like the Collin I knew or grew to love. It was surreal. That's why it was even more of a shock than it would have been otherwise.

Part of me thinks it isn't real.. it was just a mistake. Part of me is fooled into thinking he still wants me. Part of me is still in denial thinking he'll come back and beg for forgiveness. There's a sliver of my heart that doesn't want to give up on the thought that he loves me back.

It's time to wake up though.

It's time to go back to the life where hopeful dreams are better than the dreary reality.