I was hanging out with Alex and Mitch and Alex said something that normally woulda been irritating but chill but tonight I got so mad over it. And I played it off well, acting like I didn't mind and then finding the first excuse to leave..but dang. I was ticked off. And then I got home and Taylor had wanted to hang out with me so I text him and he's all "oh, I'm with so-and-so, maybe some other time." And it made me so depressed and angry. Like, you had wanted to hang out with me and now I'm not good enough. Hahaha, normally it'd be okay! Normally I'd be like "uh, okay, whatever" and find someone else to be with. But tonight with all these pre-period crappy emotions I feel awful. Angry and depressed and like a total loser. And Mitch would have stayed and hung out with me but I thought I was going to be hanging out with Taylor! AND Paul called while I was with Alex and I turned him down too! So now I have NO one to hang out with and I don't want to go to bed like a loser. Tanner's out of town. Jenna's partying. I'm mad at Alex. I told Paul no already. Taylor is with someone better. I am such a loser. But I think what bugs me the most is that I'm so upset over it when I really shouldn't be. I totally see how irrational I am being. That's how I've always been when I'm PMS-y, like I know exactly how much I'm over-reacting but I really can't help it. My head's going "oh my gosh, you're fine!" and my heart's going "nooo! my life is overrr!".
I'm just a crazy freak.
A crazy freak that no one wants to hang out with! :(
