Today I got a job. Bethesda Lutheran Communities. I'll be working as a On-Call Direct Support Professional. Which really tells you nothing about the position because according to the lady it's just working with mentally disabled adults in a care home; cooking, cleaning, mostly interacting with the residents. It doesn't start until May 28th. It's already stressing me out. Quite frankly, everything about this job has stressed me out since I found it. I just don't feel good about it. But I have no other options, need a job desperately, and so I have to take it.


This is not the summer I imagined and it's upsetting me.