October 23, 2011
Get me on that stage again
Theater is a huge deal to me. I absolutely love the stage. It's pretty much my biggest talent and passion. I've been acting since I was ten, at the persuasion of my all-knowing mother. I've been in eleven total plays/musicals, starring in seven. I even directed a play last year. Drama is something I love, love, love, even as I hate it. It's so perfect for my emotional little personality. I crave it. In high school I was known for being the drama geek. Thankfully, I've always been aware that pursuing theater as a career is not the path I was meant to take, or even a wise one to attempt taking. Some people have said to me "follow your dreams! if that's what you want for your life then do it!" Okay. Well. I love drama. And I would love the opportunity to be on stage as a career (in moderation, maybe two plays/musicals a year). But you need to follow your heart and also be realistic. I'm no idiot. Trying to make it on Broadway is one of the most competitive pursuits out there. It's an awful business, keeps terrible hours, and would emotionally disable me. But mostly, it's just not profitable! I could get a degree in theater but, really, how much is that going to get me? I'll be in community theater for the rest of my life. It's not worth the money I'm paying to get an education. Theater is like a passionate hobby. It can't be a career for everybody, especially not for me. So I'm going to major in something really awesome. Something useful and profitable. I don't know what that will be yet, I'm still very much an undecided freshman, but it will not be theater. Or art. Or music. Or history. Or something equally virtually useless. That being said.. I still want to do theater. I want to do it on the side, as a seriously involved hobby, while I'm in school. But welcome to the real world, where the theater program is so intensely difficult to get into that you have to not only be better than the other 30,000 students, but have to be majoring in some form of theater arts. This is crap. Seriously??! If I want to be in a stinking play I have to getting a degree in theater? It's a play. It's entertainment. Besides, I have talent, you want me! I'm not going to throw away my education for one play! I may be dedicated but I'm not that dedicated. Or stupid. It's so frustrating to me. I want to act again so badly. But I can't because this school is so competitive! There's always the option of community theaters around here, but that's not nearly the same in anyway. I want to act here at my school. Is that too much to ask?