A minor disadvantage of love/marriage

There are plenty of blog posts out there that detail the difficulties that marriage and love pose but I haven't found many that address this particular topic. So I'm thinking maybe not everyone struggles with this and I'm just crazy. Either way, it's gonna get written.

I love my husband. He is legitimately my favorite person on this planet and one of my favorite things to do is spend time with him. I married him so that's not super surprising, right? If someone asked me "how would you spend the day if money was no object and the weather was perfect?" I'd straight up say "hang out with Chris and do __________." He's just my favorite.

So here's the epic downside of marriage. You find this AWESOME person that you LOVE being with and want to be with them ALWAYS and... You can't be with them always.

Right? Cuz you have to go to work and you have to go to school (for me right now that is) and some people stay at home while the other is gone so virtually no one gets to spend all of their time with their spouse.

Don't get me wrong, it's super important to have alone time and have relationships with other people. And it's important to be able to spend time away from your spouse without getting needy.

Which I can do! I can be away from Chris and still be super happy! Just yesterday I went on a five hour field trip and had a really great time with my peers. It was super fun, I'm serious. But in the very back of my mind I was thinking that it would be ever so slightly more fun with Chris there. And when I got home I was so happy to be with him again. I didn't mind being away from him and I enjoyed my time doing my thang without him but it's just a bit nicer to be with him.

Isn't that cruel?! I finally have this human I want to be with 24/7 and I can't because we are middle class people who have to work/go to school (not to mention that'd be insanely unhealthy). It's like the worlds way of mocking me.

And it's not funny.

This could totally be a newlywed thing, I wouldn't know.  But man I wish I could just be with my favorite all of the time.

Marriage is so cruel. ;)

Reflections

I heard a song on the radio today that I loved as a teenager. It got me reflecting.

My life has changed so much since I was graduating from high school and starting life on my own. It feels like who I was then is so distant and far away. Yet, I don't feel like I've changed much at all.

Currently in my 9th semester of college.

That sounds like a lot, doesn't it?

My life

Things are okay, guys. Things are okay.

I hate my job, oh gosh I really do. But it's slowed down so much that it's become manageable again. Not to mention that I am in an emotional place right now that I can handle it all. I'm able to forget about it when I go home. And it's so close to being over! Come May and I'm done there!

School isn't bad at all. Two of my five classes are really tough but I am keeping up with it all quite nicely. Lots of homework but it's alright. I don't have the best grade in physics but I couldn't care less, to be honest. As long as I pass. We've been going to the library almost every night and studying a ton.

Financially; things are great. We have savings built up and we are working enough to continue saving, not just tread water.

Our future is still slightly uncertain but not scary. Chris is taking the GRE next month and that's going to be the tipping point of whether he goes to grad school right away or takes a break to work. And if he goes to grad school then I'll work until we start having kids. If he doesn't get right into grad school I'll work until he does get in. But either way we still have doors open for us.

And of course, my husband is freaking amazing and I love him to pieces.

See? Things are okay, guys. Life is okay.

I had a good hair day and wanted to brag. Sorry but also totally not sorry because this is my blog, be-otches.

Guess what

I saw Alex today! That's right - Alex the ex.

I was in the JFSB and he walked past me in the hall and then gave me a hug and then we talked for forty minutes! WE ARE FRIENDS! It was so great! He got married on Friday! And I forgot what a weirdo he is haha. It was really good and felt very normal. Not like an ex boyfriend at all! Just like a friend. I was very glad.

It just feels so good that I don't have to walk across campus feeling slightly afraid of seeing him. I finally feel like I'm friends with all of my exes. Gosh this is so happy-making.

Reflections on my honey

Taking a moment to reflect on how very loved I am by this man.

I'm an ungrateful and spoiled little girl and heaven knows I don't deserve someone like Chris.

Today I felt especially introspective on our relationship and how special it is. He is better to me than I could have imagined my husband would be.

I dunno, maybe it's just late but shoot dang I'm feeling so #blessed. Look at my cutie. The world probably doesn't think much of my chunk of a man but he's pretty much my whole world.

Do you ever have those moments where you're like "oh my gosh I have fabulous eyebrows."

Chris's face when we go on a walk and there are bugs everywhere trying to eat him.

Pansy ;)

AAAHHAHAHAHAHAA I AM DONE WITH FINALS SUCKER FOOLS!!!

Bring on summer time!!

My sister made a blog and it reminded me that I haven't blogged in... Months hahaha
So here's a photo compilation of the places we've been in the last two years.

I've been thinking a TON about traveling lately.