Alex is home.
wut.
Two years he has been gone.
Isn't it weird how fast time flies but how it seems so slow at the time?
I don't even care that he's back in a romantic way. I'm just so disappointed that he's back and we can't be friends. Because you know what I want? And I have wanted for a long time? To sit and talk with him. I just wanna chat, gosh dang it. I want some closure! I want to go to lunch and say here's what I've been doing, it has been great, how was your mission? And I'll tell him about dating Chris and doing geology and working at the nursing center and my whole life as of two years ago. And he'll tell me about his experiences on the mission and what his plans are now. We'd laugh over our old times and I'd apologize for letting him down and we'd agree we were never meant for each other.
And then you know what I would like to happen?
We would say goodbye, walk away, and never look back.
I want some freaking closure. I want to say hello and then goodbye.
When Collin broke up with me I couldn't get over it until I forced him to see me two weeks later and demanded he speak to me. He did, we agreed it was over, and I never thought twice about it. Literally have never missed him since. I got my closure and moved on.
Alex, I need closure. I have since we stopped writing so long ago. I'm engaged, I know. And you're an ex. So we can't see each other. And I won't ask. But for the love of all that is good and holy know that I crave closure and am dying that I can't have it.
Time to make my own closure?
